This is about me and not about others. I just think that there are so many wrong perceptions about me. I want to tell a bit about my past. In the past, when I was in elementary school, I was an active children, I was very like to mingle with others, cycling every weeks with my friends is my hobby, I didn’t like to stayed at home at that time, that’s why my father said that he was rarely to see me studied and my neighbor said that I was a stupid children. I’m the only child in my family, that’s why other people always said that I’m a spoiled person (I don’t know is it right if I use spoiled to translate “manja” in English but that’s what I mean). Actually, sometimes it is right and sometimes it is wrong, I just think that in fact, everyone have this character, that’s just about how often you show it. Other people always said that everything that I want is always bought by my father but actually that’s wrong, my mother always teach to me from I was 6 year to save my money if I want to buy something, so I buy with my saving.
When I was in senior high school, my family business went bankrupt, my mother sold all her jewelry and we move to a much more modest home. I don’t know why maybe I also just realized know that, when it happened my character was changing. I remembered that when I was in elementary school I do really love singing and dancing but after that moment I become an introvert person, I was really introvert person at that time even my friends called me nerd but in good case . But, when I was in vocational high school little by little I become friendlier until now I always trying to understand others. Many of my friends said that he/she doesn’t like me in first time, like Pa Hatim said when you think that someone is a bad person, it’s only because you didn’t know he/she well, it also happen with me.
I’m a Moslem, now I see many of my friends using scarf, maybe I’m the little one who not using it yet. Without using scarf my friends always know that I’m a Moslem. When you don’t use scarf yet it doesn’t mean that you are not Moslem, right? I don’t want to only use scarf because my friends use it. I prefer to repair my heart first before I repair my appearance. I’m a Moslem then I pray in mosque, I try to help other people, and other. That’s my choice to show that I’m a Moslem. I never said to my friend to do like me, because in my mindset religion is the most fundamental rights for a human so I think I must appreciate to all of my friends decision for their life, so do I, I want all of my friends appreciate with my decision.
How about my ethnic? My mother is Javanese and my father is a Javanese actually but born and grow in Medan so I can conclude that I am Javanese but I was born and grow in Jakarta. Sometime I was confused when someone asked about my ethnic because many of us use patrialisme so it depends on our father ethnic but my father is confused to, so I’m to be very confused. Actually, many people said that I’m Javanese because of my face and my behaviorism. Now, many of my friends is Javanese, I can see if he/she Javanese only from their accent. When first I listen I want to laugh but I don’t want to make him/her uncomfortable with it just wait the time until me usual to hear it.
I’m a college students but many of my neighbor said that I was working because I went at 5.30 and back to home about 9-10.30 pm so, they think that it’s not usual to study until like that. I just reflect if many of my neighbors don’t really care about education but I really like to study. That’s why I don’t have friends in my home because I don’t have time to mingle at home. I just play with my little friends who live next door with me. I only think that maybe they don’t really care about education because they have big house actually so they only think about how to produce money but I don’t want to b like that. I really say thankful to my parents because they always give big effort for my education, that’s why I want to give the best that I can do to them.
Actually there are so many thing that I want to write but it will be very long to read. That’s only the big issue of my life.. Thank you
